tension
9:34 p.m.

Hey You~

i notice the tension, pulled like a wire between us. i want to talk about it but i'm afraid we will just yell again.

we've been so many things for so long to each other. but no matter how angry i've been over the years there's also been love, lots of love.

we were friends first, we'll always have a bond between us- you have always been part of the family i chose.

no one will ever replace or take that from you- i wish i could get you to understand that with a degree of certainity.

please believe me when i say you help me become the good i like about myself. and even when i didn't let you in and give you every ounce of who i am it wasn't that i was hiding- it was that i didn't know how.

i don't regret meeting you and i don't regret loving you. i just wish i could have made it last enough for both of us. it died somewhere along the way and that makes me sad.

i really hope you can learn not to hate me.

and remember the girl who used to be alot like your twin; she still considers you family.

love always~ Me

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