i'm sorry...
1:24 p.m.

to my dear friends,

i'm so sorry i have to leave you. this is one of the hardest things i'll ever have to do. you'll be crying, and i'll be walking away. i'm so sorry i can't wipe away your tears, i can barely take care of mine.

this isn't the end. i hope you all know that. even though i may be 3000 miles away, i'll always be with you. just look back and you'll see me. smiling at you in the hallway. sitting on your couch and watching tv with you. standing right next to you at a show. talking with you about our plans for the future.

you all mean so much to me -- i want you to know that. i treasure every memory we've ever made, even the ones most people would like to forget. thank you so much for being my friend. i'm so grateful that you even wanted to talk to me. when i moved here two years ago i hated it... and now, now that i'm tempted with paradise... i finally figured it out.

this is paradise.

being here with you guys is when i'm the happiest. hanging out, talking, going to shows... the little things too. seeing you every day in class and knowing that i've got a partner for every assignment. i'll miss that...

i didn't fall in love with the state, i fell in love with the people in it. i fell in love with you and your sense of humor. i loved how you were always up for a good time. thank you so much... i'm going to miss your emo-ness, the shows we've been to, our talks, our movies, our your-mom jokes, the asian connection... and well... just being with you.

please don't hate him for doing this. i know it hurts him too. he's just confused, that's all. if you're going to feel anything towards him, let it be sympathy. he's caused all of this, just think how badly he must feel.

as for me, don't worry about me. i'll be fine later. it's you you have to worry about. be strong without me. be yourself and don't compromise your beliefs. always be honest and follow your heart. don't dwell on the bad times, because you might be missing out on the good times. don't ever put things off until tomorrow because there might not be a tomorrow.

i hope that my stay here as taught you something... i know i've grown since i first got here. please don't forget me because i know i won't forget you. you all mean so much to me, i'm sorry i have to do this to you.

it's all going to work out in the end, you know? you might doubt it at first, but you'll realise it later. i always uesd to question my move here, but now i know why. i was supposed to meet all of you.

who knows where this road will lead. i know i don't. all i know is that it's the path i have to take. it will be filled with many obstacles and it may be rocky, but it is my path and i must follow it. i'm glad our paths crossed...

i'll love you forever and ever.

i promise.

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