who are you?
1:21 a.m.

Well, I don't even know what your name is anymore. And more importantly, I don't know who you are.

How can you have changed so much in such a small course of time?

Remember when we were kids, we had so much fun. We did whatever we want, we were whoever we wanted to be. We were celebrities, so big that we had entire channels devoted to us, and hoards and hoards of fans (not to mention houses). We were mystical creatures, fairies, elves, mermaids, and anything we could think of. So beautiful, powerful, and clever that no one could resist. We were older, wiser, or maybe younger, happier, it was limitless.

But the best times were when we were ourselves and each other. So dynamic and different and so attached, like our souls had limbs that wove together.

Times came that were not as happy as we were used to. But, we stayed together, held on to each other, and came through. We were strong, because we had each other.

And suddenly

It's all changed. Everything is new. Everything is different. We're growing, so fast it's akward and our limbs are unraveling slowly before my eyes.

We were once so different. But at the core, stripped down, we were the same vulenarble creature, each who hid behind a different front. Now, the difference is even clearer, even more pronounced, so much more that the edge is jagged and hard.

Why do you feel this need to conform yourself to an empty image? Why do you want to be judged and stereotyped?

Why can't you just fit in with me?

And why, do you have to be so defensive, is it because you know that if we ever get down to this, you will have to tell me what is really going on, and you are scared?

Because if we don't, there won't be a we that I can hope for.

We will grow apart.

We have grown apart.

And it is so slow that it is almost like a physical pain, this limbs unwinding and tearing apart.

Is something wrong? Or are you just putting up a front? Pretending like we did so long ago? Should I just let go?

Where have you gone?

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