inane
12:11 a.m.

hello. do i know you? i think i once did and fuck, i wont say that you never knew me cuz you did.

or at least i thought you did.

fuck you

i think this may be the first time in my life i've ever said this to you but:

i hate you

in some slightly inane way,

I hate you

i dont fucking care if you fucking have so much fucking homework and school is dragging you down. is that affecting your other friendships?? is it?? well i dont think so. cuz you seem pretty chummy with them and all. i thought i was your best friend? i mean, there was that one day i was a total wreck, and yes, you were there, and yes, i thank you for that but for fuck's sake that doesnt mean you could leave me alone all 364 other days of the fucking year! im your FRIEND, arent i? and God, i try to be there for you but how the hell can i do that when you dont even TALK to me??

you wanna know what im talking about??

do you???

i hate you

i stood there for at least 15 fucking minutes and you didnt even acknowledge my EXISTENCE. i bet if i brought it up you'd say you did, wouldnt you??

WOULDNT YOU???

CUZ YOU ALWAYS HAVE AN EXCUSE. everytime i bring something up that could be your fault, you always have some form of an excuse that could make up for it. but in all reality, those excuses are bullshit. i dont believe you. i dont.

i remember when we stopped talking to this one girl that was once our friend, stopped inviting her to places, stopped doing anything with her at all. she finally got the message.

is that what yore doing to me???

IS IT?!?!

cuz fuck, YOU CAN TELL ME. i'll appreciate it a lot more if you fucking tell me rather than leaving me out of every single fucking thing that i used to be a part of.

you'll try???

YOU'LL TRY?!?!

bullshit

you dont care, do you??

ALL YOU FUCKING CARE ABOUT ARE THOSE STUPID BOYS.

well im sorry i dont have a dick and two balls so you'll pay some attention to me.

i've tried. you cant honestly ever fucking say that i havent tried cuz i HAVE.

what you say

is unbelievable

i cant stand

to hear it once more

what you did

i don't believe it all

and whats worse

you cant even say why

thats right

try to explain you brushing me off and forgetting i exist

TRY IT

i dare you

fuck, and i even got you a Christmas present.

but hey, my birthday was a month and 3 days ago, wheres MY present?

thought so

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