lust
1:40pm

to you,

i had fun yesterday. i was happy. i was actually genuinely happy even before the little dose of alcohol i had. just happy.

and you understood that. you teased and everything, but you understood it. you understood how i was just all high on air, high on ife, even. you understood why i was acting so crazy.

but i wonder if you really understood how much i wanted you right then. at that moment in time the lust was just so hard edged that i couldnt get it out of my head. i just wanted you. i wanted to kiss you so bad that even 6 hours after i spoke to you i wanted to run to where you were and smack with one so hard and fast you'd be wondering what and who the hell that was.

but you would know it was me. wouldnt you? cuz who else could it be. the lust was exhilerating, exotic, even and it scared me. it gave me this feeling....this feeling i thought was actually gone forever.

it was more than lust though. because it's still here and it hurts to not even be with you.

why?

luv

me

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