later daayzzzz
10:56 p.m.

I find it kind of funny how things have worked out for me in the past months. I've forgotten who I really am, but now after all the frustration, confusion, disappointment, depression, stress etc... I've finally let go of the past, and frankly, I'm glad. In fact I would consider this to be the only smart decision I've made for a long time.

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I hated being lied to. I absolutely fucking hated it and I still hate it. Even more than that however, I hate being lied to about being lied to. Eventually I was lying to myself. Why you would do something like that to me, I dont know, and I really don't want to know, because any answer you would give me would be utter bullshit.

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Fuck a new start because I would rather an end. You said you cared about me but I know you didn't. Maybe you loved me at one point but obviously not much because you treated me like shit. The fact that I once loved you now disgusts me. The fact that I became deeply depressed over things that were trivial when I should have been enjoying life makes me sick.

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Friends with benefits was a stupid idea that didn't work. So was our entire relationship. When I think about some things now, I wish that I could go back to June, and avoid everything that happened so I would have 4 less months of pathetic self-pity and depression to repress.

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I don't know or care what you want from me. But what I want, is to completely forget about our sad excuse for a relationship built on lust, and move on. Because life goes on, and whether or not you go with it is up to you, but I'm already on my way.

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This is the last time you'll ever hear from me.

Take care of yourself,

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-that guy who didn't know better.

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