whywhywhy
3:05 p.m.

if you dont stop thinking about him right now, i may have to take drastic measures. i dont know quite right now what they are, but i will. get this through your head: he has a life. whereas you, midear, dont. youre used to this sort of thing. youre used to guys coming onto you and then just dropping you. why does it still hurt? why does it still make you mad? why do you care? you should move on. besides, hes waiting for you. waiting for you to realize that he may quite possibly be the one. but what does it matter to you right? cuz you want to have FUN you want to have FLINGS you want to EXPERIENCE life without being tied down with a guy. or whatever. but seriously. he doesnt know you. you dont know him. he doesnt have any obligation whatsoever to call you. if he calls, he calls. if he doesnt then...whatever. alls well anyway. you see him tomorrow. for 8 hours. unless something goes wrong and hes not there or youre not there or youre split into groups and youre not together or whatever...and if he acts like a complete asshole like you think he will and pretends he doesnt know you or that last saturday never happened or he DOES happen to have a girlfirend and all that "ive never cheated on anyone and never will" shit goes down the drain...then leave it alone. you are NOT, i repeat, NOT allowed to freak out. at least, not in front of him. in any way. you can freak out to your friends, but NOT HIM. okay? okay.

*sigh why do you always do this to yourself?

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