maybe it will be easier to walk away if you're gone
2:03 a.m.

romeo,

maybe it's easier to walk away while you're gone.

i want to tell you things so bad. i want to be with you. i want you to drum on my car and smoke your cigarettes and not get on top of me but i don't care. i want to know you and have you know me.

i want to be able to walk away. i want to be able to pretend like nothing happened, nothing ever will happen. i want to forget about you

but i can't

i want to believe that you don't kiss girls and i want to believe that something could happen. i want to think that distance won't matter but it will. i like to pretend like those other arms are yours even though they're not. i like to pretend like you gave me the bracelets even though i took them. i like to pretend like they were something special to you that i have now.

i wish i'd never told you. i wish you'd never told me back. i wish you weren't gone all the time. i wish you'd call me. i wish you'd like me too, the way i like you. i wish you could see it the way i do. i wish i could see it the way you do.

a lot of the things i say i don't mean. a lot of the things i say i mean too much. sometimes i just want to push you away, say, forget you cause i never it will never work out. but mostly i just smile pretty and pretend like it will, glass half full. always half full.

Kristen

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